2 years ago i’ve met a girl that was a gf of one of my past “Friends”. they dated 2 years before i met her. we met on her boyfriend’s birthday, and since the first time we met i felt a very strong connection to her. she seemed nervous and shy around me, she was laughing from my words a lot, and we started meeting together only in this group, and yet i always felt that strong connection with her like nobody else. i was very lonely my whole life.
i never had a real connection with no one. but everytime i met with her i felt like the love is growing stronger.
we were meeting like once a month. and she was one of the few people i knew. so i thought a lot about her. and she still seemed happier and acted different around me, even though she had way more people she knew, i still felt like we need to be together, that this is the purpose of life, that we the best choice for each other. she still had her boyfriend, so i never knew if she felt the same, becasue she never really told me what she feels, she said she like me, but i don’t know if she didn’t want to conffece her love because of her bf.
we didn’t saw each other half a year. i’m thinking about her everyday even though i know this is not ok. my brain can’t accept that my life will go without her, and i’m scared she forgot about me, and if she didn’t liked me at all all this time. we had a very strange relationship.
because i could swear that i felt a strong love from her, she texted me, she understood everything i said, she was the onlything that gave me happines. and she is important to me, but i can’t understand if that’s it, and my life will be a pieace of waste without her..