TL;DR: Despite boundaries set that porn is cheating, I still seek it, even though my girlfriend meets all my needs. How do I fix it?
Me and my girlfriend have been dating about 2 years and I’ve never been happier. We have a very strong and mature emotional relationship. In addition to a strong emotional connection, physically we have a very good relationship with good communication and a healthy balance. To put this whole dilemma in context, we set boundaries long ago that porn was cheating and if I ever needed satisfaction in that way to let her know. These are the boundaries that we both set and Despite me meeting her needs and her meeting my needs, I will often look at other girls pictures or go as far as to watch porn. I break the boundaries that are set and I would feel horrible if she did the same. I definitely have a higher sex drive than her but she knows that and we deal with that. The worst part about all this is that I often am too worried about what would happen if she catches me, rather than what to do to change. I’m here to take ownership and work my way out of this. My question to you all is how do I get out of this addiction. And how do I not let it effect our relationship?