My gf and I have dated for 4 years and decided to break up recently due to a lot of issues that are difficult for us to resolve while together. Basically, a lot of things that have happened in the past in our relationship are too painful to healthily process together right now. We have an international trip planned in 2 weeks, and we agreed to go as a last-hurrah of sorts for our relationship. But I’m very anxious! We have already moved out and have maintained communication, but have been having a lot of painful conversations. Part of me wants to rip the bandaid off and abandon the trip, but it is non-refundable. My gf will be heartbroken if I back out on such short notice, but I’m not sure I can mentally and emotionally handle being on a vacation knowing that we’ve already decided to break up, and still thinking about all of the reasons why. We’ve also already told friends we have decided to break up, so I just feel a little silly. I will also be out several hundred dollars if I back out, and she’s nervous about short-notice solo travel. I’m trying to tell myself we can have a good time and make some good last memories, but I’m just so anxious!
Any tips for having a good time on a trip like this, or would you just cut losses even though it will hurt? My therapist and all of my friends are on team cut losses, but I’m kind of afraid to do that too.
TLDR: Gf and I broke up this month but are planning to go on a nonrefundable trip together in 2 weeks. How can we make the best of the trip, if that even seems possible?