I messed up my love life. Before her, I’d never had a girlfriend. Two years ago, I met a girl who was an international student from India. We chatted for a week, and she came over to my place a few times. Then one night, I made some moves, and she didn’t say no. We kissed and spent the night together. Even then, she wanted a relationship and marriage. Before anything happened, she wanted to know if I was serious, but I wasn’t thinking straight. Eventually, she kept telling me she loved me, and I felt bad about it. I told her I loved her too, and we entered into a relationship. We had a lot of fights and ups and downs. Recently, she’s been pushing for marriage, but I don’t want to get married because my career hasn’t started yet, and I’m barely making it. Also, I’m not sure if I truly love her, this is becuase i like talking to other girls, and i enjoy it, i even flirts with some but don’t take it too far not beucase i can’t but becuase my gf lives with me and i don’t get a breathing space. my phone is also checked by her. im not good person, she not breaking up with me, she wants to work things out. she is great person, wife material, she cooks, earns money, is supportive, and has everything. but i can’t seem to say to marriying her.