when I started dating most guys came off as sleazy or they wanted to keep it secret which I was fine with for the most part but when I was forced out by one of m boyfriends I gave up on meaningful relationships and started just letting other guys use me, I always felt terrible afterwards but in the moment I was high on life, then I met a guy, lets just call him my star, he was amazing, star and I started talking and he made me actually feel loved, and I started to get caught up in my thoughts, and thinking what of I screwed this up, and I ended sabotaging myself, he said that if I ever worked my issues out he would be there, but I don't think I can drag him back into my chaos, into the madness that makes my life, especially when I'm on the verge of getting my life back in, I just don't want to run him away forever


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  1. My girlfriend of 5 months just flew to another city after an argument. I think she is scared of intimacy and self sabotaging the relationship. It’s caused me frustration and I got anxious and I think it triggered a PTSD response in her. She blocked me. I want her to come back and see a future with her. I’m so open to working through it if she is open to it, and willing. It’s not a burden for the right person. Hope this helps. Good luck.

  2. It can only be a good thing to talk with a therapist. Do that first. Then. After seeing them for a while, make that decision with the therapist. You can’t just go back without taking meaningful actions and say that you’re all better now. We all have stuff and life is better when we address it.

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