Can’t socialize without caffeine

When I drink coffee I’m like Conor McGregor I got a good infectious life of the party vibe. I’m having fun here, there, banter, jokes all is well. I feel in control of social situations.

When I’m not caffeinated though its like I’m a shell of myself. Avoid eye contact here, I’m too brain dead to be fun or have good banter, I’m self conscious now, on and on with shit. I’m just not in the zone I’m in my head slow awkward and anxious, easily frustrated. Wtf