I now realize I have a hard time socializing with others. Small talk is impossible for me, I cannot understand how to joke around with others, and if someone is going through a hard time I don’t know how to interact with them except offer to help if I can. I’m an excellent listener but when it comes to asking open ended questions I fall short. Lastly I have a hard time asking for help and I tend to just avoid people because I am not sure how to approach anyone. I have a hard time receiving or giving compliments and if anyone gives me a gift or does something nice for me I get confused or I looked shocked. Lastly, I have a hard time being at a friends place. I do not like to go even through their kitchen if I am there and they tell me to grab something to eat or have a drink. I just feel like I do not care what others think of me, but on a personal level I want to change and be a more outgoing, funny, and compassionate person. I don’t even know my neighbors and I’ve been here for a year. In social settings with friends I usually sit in the back and enjoy others talking and engaging, but then I withdraw to my phone or fidgeting with my hair. I feel I am doomed to be an introverted cat lady because social skills – 0 and maintaining lasting personal relationships – 0. Any advice ?