I want to be good with people but it’s hard

The title speaks for itself really, I genuinely try and be nice and present whilst talking to people i don’t really know or even know pretty well. I just can’t. I find it hard to engage with people but i’m just not there really. I can’t bring myself to find peoples insignificant stories interesting I can put up the facade that i’m listening and engaged but I really am not. I want to get better at small talk etc but this mean-spirited nature just seems like the default for me, and when I am nice and stuff I feel like i’m faking it and then feel bad.