F23 virgin. Whenever I masturbate, I always have my clothes on my upper-body on and my panties off from under my blanket. I always do it with my pink clit vibrator and porn on my phone with headphones on. Most of thebtime my orgasms are average. I don’t remember how to get a mindblowing oragsm from myself anymore but I’m horny nonetheless. My best friend and his family are in Canada until October so their apartment is completely mine for me to clean and get their mail for them until Halloween. I loathe to admit it, but I have a big sex drive. I’m horny like 4 times a week. I’ve never had sex because I do not want a one-night stand and want to lose my virginity to my future – and hopefully – forever boyfriend. I’m also kinda kinky? While I am strictly monogamous, and the thought of having more than one boyfriend repulses me, my go-to porn genre is orgy porn. I really think it’s hot as fuck to see so many people do nothing but have wild sex. (Especially when all the girls are sucking off the guys at once. I could cum in a second 🤤) Which is also weird because I would probably throw up if I was in an orgy myself or saw it in real life. Idk why I’m okay with in with porn but in real life it would gross me out. No one knows that I’m heavily into orgy/group-sex porn because I would cease to be around them anymore.
Anyways, I thought to spice up my masturbation sessions, since I have my friends apartment to myself, I would do some pretty kinky shit to myself while he is away because I have complete privacy away from the people I love with. I decided I was going to bring my laptop there and watch porn on it completely naked on the couch while I played with my pussy. And I did that. I decided the couch because doing it on any of the beds felt hella wrong to me so I did it on the couch. So I got naked, turned on some orgy porn, and started using my vibrator on my pussy. At first, it was exhilarating. I was watching porn on my laptop with no headphones (usually its my phone and my raycons) and felt so sexy. I decided to moan a little bit as I usually am completely silent while masturbating because I thought it would be extra hot and I could cum harder. When I felt my orgasm coming up, I rubbed my nipple and the vibrator around my clit in a circular motion and came. The orgasm was okay, not all that special even though I was horny. Immediately afterwards, I felt guilty and sick. I turned off the porn and got dressed right away and didn’t even want to think about sex anymore. I was nauseous. I ordered a dildo for beginners because I was going to go back there tomorrow with my lube and ride a dildo while I watched porn again on my laptop but now idk if I want to. I’ve never done anything like this before and idk why I feel guilty.
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TIL women also get post nut clarity
Horny brain and satisfied brain are two very different beasts
give it time
what you did was pretty mild as some people would do far worse
for example going into the moms or sisters dirty laundry and smelling used panties
far far worse
I don’t see any problem with this, just be sure to clean up after yourself. Maybe bring a towel with you so you can put it under you.
Now is the time to be alone and really learm your body. Find what works for you best.
Think of having the apartment as you license to experiment in a safe environment. When you got you horny brain on decide what else you want to do they. Climax stranding up and things like that
You haven’t done anything wrong as far as I can tell. Instead of watching Netflix and eating pizza, you watched porn and played with your cooch. You haven’t harmed anyone. I think your head got in the way of your enjoyment – don’t overthink, live in the moment and enjoy your body!
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Imo this 100% depends on the material the couch is made of, but pretty disrespectful regardless.
I don’t think anyone would really care if someone rubbed one out at their place (especially with complete privacy), but I’d be pissed if my couch soaked up a bunch of stank and ass sweat. They trusted you to look after their place so you gotta respect their stuff.
I love the sex positivity in this sub, but damn you guys gotta learn some hygiene.
I wish you didn’t feel so much guilt about being sexual. Masturbating. I know that you said you are saving yourself for your to be husband, but I wonder how you would be feeling if you were experiencing, discovering your sexuality with another person, and not by yourself, with headphones on, and a room full of strangers.
I wonder how you would be feeling about sex if you were learning the gift your body is to another person as a source of joy. And how much you enjoy someone else’s body. How it bonds people.
What may not feel natural with headphones, a laptop, might with a real person. Knowing the naturalness of sexuality with another person might put masturbating to porn in perspective.
Wishing you a sense of peace and insight. It’s healthy for a young woman to be sexual.