It’s been 2+ years since I[25M] and my girlfriend[23F] got into a long distance relationship. I’m reminded of the times we decided to take the step of being in a long distance relationship(knowing the challenges we’d face) and the promises we made to each other to get back together no matter how long it took and what we did with our careers, because we loved each other so much and wanted to be with each other no matter what. I’m the only one who sticks to this promise now.
She hasn’t brought up the exact reason why she can’t do this for a longer period of time(like 1 or 2 years more). I can’t explain the pain I’m going through right now. I crossed all my lines for her. Did the things she wanted me to do, though those werent acceptable for me in the beginning. I changed my rules for her(it was very challenging in the beginning) because i tried to understand things from her perspective, how she thought. If things had gone well/goes well, it would end in an interfaith marriage. I feel I gave my everything in this relationship. I was ready to relocate for her(though it did not mean to be a great thing to do to my career). For me, she came above everything else. For those who misunderstand, I am a very ambitious and career-oriented person. But I would have been ready to even do that, just for her. It seems she has a different plan now. Knowing this breaks my heart. I feel like my love life has come to an end. It’s not about not being able to find another person and move on. But i know I’ll never be able to love them the way I loved her because she was what I wanted. I won’t be able to do justice to the next girl who decides to love me. I’m not the person who forces my wishes/opinions on my girlfriend. I won’t let her know the kind of pain I’m going through. At the moment, I don’t know what to wish for. Should I wish she comes back to me? The fact that she once chose to leave me would hurt me more. I don’t think any of her answers can heal that pain.
TL;DR What do I do to my long distance relationship that’s falling apart!