TW: assault
How do I get over the guilt / shame of having a “high body count” about 9 partners, when half of them were either built on coercion or assaults. Many of these transpired when I was drunk or blacked out… because I was told I was too “tight” otherwise.. I see how fucked up it is now. But I still can’t shake the feeling of being… shameful about these encounters.
Do I still count this? I feel like only 1 of these instances was based on genuine connection. I feel upset with myself.
Any advice would be great.
2 comments
why count.. just do you .. starting from the new day one… today.. fuck everyone and what they think.
Don’t think about it too much , nobody knows but u , sometimes ppl are the harshest judges to themselves , 9 is nothing , just be happy it was not a a 2 digit number 😉🍻