I’m a very introverted person and I tend to keep my circle small. The problem is I’ve lost many friends because where i’m from people are very problematic and love to start and be in drama. I’ve had to cut off “friends” because the constant need to fight and talk behind peoples backs was just exhausting.
My best friend moved away and that really sucks, he’s the only friend who’s really there for me and I wish he never left. My other “best friend” tends to blow me off because he doesn’t really like my boyfriend and my friend now has a new girlfriend. His last relationship he basically dropped me and blocked me without even talking to me first because his gf didn’t want him to talk to me anymore. We’ve been bestfriends for a really long time.
He’s pulling away again with this new girl, which I expected. I don’t and haven’t really seen him the same since the last situation. He also flakes everytime I invite him to things if his other friend group (my old friend group I had to distance from bc of drama) invites him, he’ll go hang out with them first. Yet he claims he doesn’t like them.
I’ve tried to ask other people I meet to hang out, they always seem interested asking if I’d wanna hang with them. Though when I text them they either say no or most of the time they’ll say yes at first, then not respond or say they can’t come last second. Yet, stress how much they want to set up plans and hang out.
In groups I used to be a part of or have tried to get close to, they will rarely invite me to things unless it’s convenient and a group of a lot of people.
So basically my only friends are my boyfriend and his friends. which i basically get left out of conversation and i feel like i’m just “the girlfriend” being brought along, even tho i’ve been friendly with them for many years. I don’t have any actual friends. It feels really lonely. I don’t want just superficial drama filled friends. It feels so defeating trying and getting the same result of feeling lonely and now rejected every time.