So when I was studying at university between 2015-2018, I befriended this girl R. We were very close and spent a few days a week together. She was from another country, so I even flew to her home country a few times and met her parents. She also came with me to visit my home town. I introduced her to my best friend and they became friends as well. The three of us went on a holiday together. All was good.
Until a period came in 2019 when I felt like I messaged her a bunch of times but she never really replied or was just really short. After a few months I texted her asking if something was wrong or what was going on because I felt like she was avoiding me. She said that indeed something was stopping her from talking to me, but she now realized it was ridiculous. I pressed her to tell me what it was. It turned out we went out for food once (pizza) and I was eating it in a not very civilized way (like spilling or something? Still not sure exactly). She didn’t like this. I also told her I had had sex with someone (a one night stand), after which I found out he had a girlfriend. After I found out he had a girlfriend, I still had sex with him one more time before proceeding to kick him out. She didn’t like this either. I totally get how it’s not a good look for me having sex with someone while I know they have a girlfriend, but I didn’t understand why this, and the fact that I ate pizza in a messy way, was a reason for R to create distance between us and not wanting to be my friend any more. I have friends who cheated on their boyfriends. I didn’t agree with it but it certainly didn’t stop me from being friends with them. Especially considering that me and R were very close, I just didn’t understand her reasons.
Anyway, R told me she felt really bad and apologized to me. She still wanted to be friends. At that point I kind of felt like I couldn’t trust her anymore and that I would be judged for something so silly as the way I eat food. So, I cut off the friendship.
This all happened in 2019. Recently R reached out to me and told me she still feels bad about what happened and wants to reconnect. I am unsure if this is sincere, or if this is just because she recently moved to my country again and doesn’t know a lot of people here (after uni she moved back to her home country). I don’t have a lot of friends. I recently moved to a new town where I don’t know anybody, except my bf. I sometimes miss the close relationship me and R used to have, but I’m not sure if it will be the same as before. I don’t know if I will feel comfortable around her, but I know that I still have love for her in my heart.
Any advice?