I (18f)am a uni student living away from home for the first time and I recently moved into this new house. It is still a bit early for students to start moving in and my housemate (20f) has moved in already. I met her for the first time yesterday and we hit it off immediately. She is from the same country that my family is from but there is still some culture differences.
The problem started when we decided to smoke w*** together since it was just us two and it had been a while since I smoked (keep in mind I get really really awkward when I’m high and tend to talk just to talk). Well since we’re new to each other, there isn’t much to talk about and after a while of some regular chitchat, her friend facetimes her and I don’t want to be rude so I stay quiet(the friend was also my ethnicity and started talking to me in my native language but my language skills are so shit and I was so high I couldn’t think straight so I said I didn’t know how to speak it and I felt like I was being judgedðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜). I guess my discombobulated mind didn’t realize there was an extremely long awkward silence so the girl hung up and left me and the roommate to get to know each other. I really felt overwhelmed bc I was high and with a stranger so when I tried to close the gap, I started saying random shit about how I never felt this high before (to somehow end the sesh early) And you know that feeling when you talk to make things less awkward and the more you talk the worse it gets???? I felt like the only one talking and I guess she wasn’t feeling the vibe either so when we ended the sesh she was in such a rush to get to her room. Anyways, it is currently the next day and I still haven’t talked to her. I was hoping that I could just briefly mention how the weed was super strong( to somehow give reason to why I was so cringy) and move on but I haven’t seen her yet. I am still so embarrassed about the encounter and I feel like she is avoiding me on purpose. How can I make us both feel less uncomfortable around each other and will the tension ever go away? I miss my momðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜