I am done 23M

I do not know what to do! Been with this girl for 5 months. I love her to death. She is amazing. I just wish she would understand me. My side. I started to drink because I cannot bear this.

I work part time. I asked for leave for Wednesday cause she planned something. I asked a day before. My manager got mad and he was frustrated with me. I wasn’t sure if she would let me have a leave next week Tuesday for my gf’s birthday. So i switched the days so that I’m sure I’ll be able to spend the entire day with her. She got mad at me. She was getting annoyed when I first said I might won’t be able to get a leave on her birthday. So I told my manager to switch my leave to next week Tuesday which is her birthday. She got mad at me. She said I do not know to take decisions. I jump around and make decisions just like that. This isn’t just one situation. There were other situations were the exact same happened. But I told her sorry. I apologised to her so many times. Its been 5 days and she won’t talk to me like how she used to before this incident began.

I do not know how to make her fine and back to normal. I’m so attached to her. Whenever she gets gloomy or upset it affects me a lot. I cry more than I ever do. I do not know what to do.