I self-sabotaged my new relationship and feeling deep regret. Dated for a month, got anxious and ruined it.

I was dating someone for about a month, we had mutual friends and met at Baseball (we both play), things were great.

But then my anxious attachment style came out and I created problems that weren’t there and basically pushed him away. I didn’t know what I was doing at the time or why, but I caused this mess, pushed him away and made him break up with me because it was “too much”.

I’m hurting so bad.

I know some people are going to say that it’s only been a month and to move on, but I can’t shut my feelings off like that and I have to continue seeing him.

He’s avoided it, checked out, has shut down and seems to just be good with moving on and dropping it, and me, and it hurts really bad. It makes me feel really worthless to see how unphased he is.

Any advice?