Bf made me insecure to the point I can’t have sex anymore

So to keep it short me (22f) and my bf (26m) have been together for about a year. I was a virgin before him so the sex was obviosly bad. Now I know that’s normal bad he made me feel insecure about it from the very beginning. From the start of the relationship till now he has always been talking/sexting other women, also meeting up with some. Comments women that look the opposite of me all the time while he complains about my looks.( tells me to work out, compares me to the ig models he likes) . Even when we’re in public he would check them in front of me. Now I’m small and petite, his type is the opposite. He never really directly told me that but he makes sure that I know (and cry about it by myself everyday). I remember once he commented on a girl with small tiddies something horrible can’t remember exactly what. One time he saw a tattoed girl on ig and said ” she tattoed herself to make her body more appealing since she has no tits”. He would without any hesitation tell me how he would fuck her or her. I’m so insecure now to the point I can’t stand when he looks at me. I know what he’s thinking about when we have sex. I can’t look him in the eyes and I most definitely can’t enjoy it when I’m so fixated on being unattractive to him. There is absolutely 0 intimacy between us. And if I told him all this he would say it’s my fault, and while that may seem true, how do you expect a girl to intiate and want sex if she feels utterly unwanted. Like being wanted would be the main thing that gives you the confidence to intiate sex . It’s okay if he doesn’t like me but why the hell would he torture me like this?? I feel so pressured when he says he wants sex . At this point I can’t even fake that I’m liking it. Just to mention his looks and “performance” has nothing to do with me not liking it’s that I’m never turned on in the first place. I like him and it would be nice if we could fix this problem since I don’t wanna get stuck in a lovless marriage. I know this is something one talk can solve, and there are 2 solutions, either we fix this or we break up, no in between. At 22 when I should enjoy life the most I will not be with someone who will cheat and can’t keep his weiner in his pants. I don’t have a healthy view on sex anymore and it’a a big problem. I see it as a challenge and I feel pressured to “prove” myself and it’s more of a steessfull experience than an enjoyable one, so naturaly I stopped wanting it. There’s one more issue, and that is that he doesn’t respect my consent. There were multiple times that he didn’t stop when I said no (more than once) , he would fuck me anyway and then get angry whem I’m upset after. I feel ….raped. Does anyone think it’s possible to solve this, with a man that can never possibly think that he’s doing something wrong or that anything is his fault. Any advice is welcome.

Edit: Adding some more things. So this man jerks off like multiple times during the night, most of the time he watches porn or someones pictures, then when he’s close he wakes me up to finish in me. I forgot to mention this because it’a actually the worst part. I’m being waken up every night to be used as a fleshlight. He doesn’t see me as a person. Like I don’t think he is aware that most people find what he’s doing …not so normal. When I was living with my mom I used to get 8 hours of sleep every night. I felt so much more healthier mentaly and physically. I wouldn’t mind if I were waken up for sex, but being waken up for this is not so fun. I know if I told him this he would shrug it off. I think he lives in his little delusional world where he thinks he owns the person he’s dating and that they’re obligated to have sex with him any time of day or night if he wants it. He just gave up on me and started using me as a masturbator. If I ever turned him down or confronted him about this it would end up with me being wrong and his ego hurt probably, which would result in a fight. I know anyone normal would leave him but I really can’t. How do you make a 26 year old grown up man, that he should have little respect for women if he doesn’t want to die alone.