Okay so I know the title is stupid. It’s a stupid issue but I wondered if anyone could relate/had advice.
A little backstory without giving too much away:
We met in late 2020; because of the pandemic it was a weird rocky start to a relationship. I ended things twice during the first month we were seeing each other due to personal family emergencies and just uncertainty around the world ending. I liked them like I’d never liked anyone before and we couldn’t stay apart so ended up back together, engaged after 3 months and moving in together around six months after we met. I know that sounds crazy, I wouldn’t have even considered this timeline with anyone else, but when you know you know.
Aside from really minor teething issues there have been no problems and we married two weeks ago. I couldn’t be happier and everything is genuinely great. Not even in a honeymoon period way, just a settled hum drum sense of content.
My issue seems to be that I can’t get out of my own head. Everything seems to be *too* perfect and I feel like I’m just constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop and for everything to go to shit.
I have autism, adhd, depression and anxiety all of which I’m sure are contributing in their own way to this feeling, coupled with the initial rocky start we had around two years ago.
I just seem to have this constant sense of dread that it’s all going to go to hell and it’s driving me insane. Can anyone relate to this? Did you overcome it and if so do you have any advice?
I feel insane!