Anyone else just hate social stuff? Like socializing in order to fit in. It’s so exhausting?

I feel like it’s a lose-lose situation for me because if I socialize like a functioning member of society, and talk about all the tiny details about things I frankly don’t super care about, I am exhausted at the end of the day. It’s draining! But on the other end, if I don’t do that or make an effort to (and it is an effort for me) I feel like an outcast, and I feel bad.

Just feeling discouraged. Socializing with coworker is not and honestly has never been fun for me. In fact, thinking back on it, socializing with a friend group even was exhausting. Anyone have some words of wisdom? It seems I recharge best either alone or with people who I feel truly understand me.