i don’t know if i should cut him off

and if i should i don’t know how or if i can.

i’m in uni and he’s one of my two real friends. i’ve know him for a year and we were quite good friends last year. we would hang out for hours and just talk. and then over the summer we would call every now and then.

but now we’re back and i just know i’m being too desperate to hang out but i just want to see him so bad i feel embarrassed. a while back he asked me out but due to circumstance i told him i had to think about it. and then we just never talked about it again. but i’ve realized that i really like him and i don’t know what to do.

i ask him to hang out a lot but he’s always busy and i just feel embarrassed to keep asking. like he barely asks me to hang out unless i ask him, then he’s trying to figure a time. but like idk because recently every time i’ve asked he’s been busy with valid excuse, i’ve also had some excuses to cancel.

but this week he was being so sweet and telling me if i ever need help with work we should do it together, and asked me to save a seat next to me in class which he never asks, and out of the blue told me he was sorry for always having to cancel. like idk cause i asked hi. yesterday to hang out but he said he was busy doing homework so i feel silly asking again even though i really want to. like today he was t doing much so i feel like he could’ve asked but he just doesn’t.

i think i’ll ask tmrw and ask if he’s free at all this weekend. and if he says no, even though it’ll be really tough, i’ll stop asking. unless it sa bad idea. I DONT KNOW