i really like the people that i’m around, my friends are genuinely great and funny people and i appreciate everything they do for me. but sometimes i end up feeling sick and annoyed by them and it gives me a rotten feeling in my stomach because i dont think i should be feeling this way about the people i hang out with even when im tired or low on energy?
i have a friend that makes a lot of jokes, in literally every interaction we have. i go along with it and actually enjoy them most of the time and play with them but there’s a lot of times where i can’t deal with it and feel annoyed i just ignore said jokes and reply in a cold manner. i feel bad but i seriously dont have the energy for it. (sometimes when i’m genuinely asking for something they make a joke and not replying to my question which annoys me a lot too)
it’s the same with everyone else, even my partner when he crosses my limits sometimes.
i end up feeling like a complete asshole that’s just being a bad friend for feeling sick of them when they’re just trying to have fun. funny but sometimes i respond with shit like “i hope your spacebar only works half the time and you can’t tell when it happens” to try and hint that im not feeling it but they just laugh at me and go on anyway though hahaha, still annoyed, but i made a funny.
it’s so weird because there’s times where i match their energy and im all over the place like they are, we were friends for that reason, i want to stay friends for that reason too.
im sorry if this post was kind of messy, im kind of bad with my words and it’s hard to get my thoughts out properly. how do i stop feeling this way? or at least tackle this issue where i dont have to feel sick of them or low on energy anymore?
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I avoid navel gazing by staying engaged in stuff that matters to me and those I love. This demands the best of me and those around me.
Navel gazing is a sign of wheel spinning for me, a crisis of opportunity.
I aim for flow: “You are doing nothing when you’re doing what you’re doing while you’re doing it.”
Yes, do consider what you’re up to at times, like you are, but as long as it takes to ensure you sharpen your saw and have the ladder you’re climbing on the apparently best wall.
We are all doing the above, respect your choices and those of others, be open about how things occur to you, take what you get for being authentic.
Best to you!
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