me (17M) and my gf (17F) have been together for a year and a half and this is my first “serious” relationship i really really love her but all my friends think i should end it.
We go to different schools and she has sports so we barley get to see each other. After about 5 months into our relationship my friend and I went to a fireworks show in our town (he moved away so he hasn’t seen these people for about a year) and we seen a couple of friends there which one of them happened to be my ex from like 2 years prior so we decided to go get food with them (probably not the best choice). My gf found out and she got really upset, and ever since then she’s been almost controlling over who I can talk to, she logs into all my accounts and has them blocked and watches who I text. I tried texting some friends of mine (girls) to see if her doing that is a normal thing and they said no, but she seen the texts and it just made our relationship worse (now there blocked). Other than that our relationship is doing okay now but the past month or so I’ve had kind of had the “grass is greener” mindset, so recently I’ve talked to her about maybe taking a break from our relationship, and she said it’s the same thing as breaking up so we’ve talked about it and now she’s guilt tripping me into staying with her saying things like “why don’t you want to be with me” “i wish you wanted to be with me forever” “i want to f***ing die” “i hate myself” “why do i always ruin everything” “you’re just gonna leave me” (I know she would never do anything to harm herself) and she’s said more, but now I don’t know what to do I feel really bad.
need help
TL;DR
Gf seems too controlling over what I do, now shes guilt tripping me into staying with her. Need help