I went camping with this group. We had a blast Fri & Sat. But I couldn’t sleep Saturday night and Sunday was pouring rain. I think I was anxious from being exhausted Sunday and from pent up frustrations / resentments.
I started venting about my frustrations with my relationship, even tho it’s mostly okay. But just a few things not aligning.
About my frustrations with work and how it feels stagnant cause I followed financial stability instead of my dream.
About my frustrations with the current living situation. Our nextdoor crazy neighbor burned many cars in our neighborhood, including ours and our garage. We dealt with insurance all year. Everything is fixed now, but we are still stuck living here next to the psycho cause we bought the house. He was detained but not arrested due to lack of physical evidence. The police know it’s him tho.
I usually am a person that keeps my emotions and feelings to myself. So I have no idea is it oversharing, trauma dumping, or is it intimate bonding… so now I feel like I might have annoyed them, showed I’m insecure and emotional.
I apologize to them for ranting, they were all super nice saying they’d be happy to lend an ear, no burden at all, no judgement, just glad I’m comfortable with them to be vulnerable around them. But I still feel like I was exposing too much of myself and might have scared them away.
TL;DR: I usually keep feelings and emotions to myself. I really like this group of friends, but first time hanging with them I somehow spilled a bunch of my frustrations. Now idk did I ruin my chance of joining the group. How to tell did I trauma dump, overshare. Or just comfortable with them. How to tell did I ruin my chance joining this group?