What was your biggest “Who even am I?/What am I doing” moment? What led to you down that certain path?

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1. About 5g of golden teacher.

   Psilocybin was the path!

2. This is basically my whole life.

3. Never had one. I’ve wondered what I should do, but never who I am.

4. After my last relationship ended with her suspected of cheating and myself spiraling down into a depression. I realized that I didn’t even know if I had a personality of my own. I was worn down, use to being used for whatever, and lived my life to please the people around me. It was pretty much in this moment that I realized I needed to do better. So I stopped dating and having intimate relations for roughly 4 years. I think I have a pretty good grasp on my own emotions and others now.

5. Took weed edibles for the first time at 28. Didn’t feel anything the first 60 min (rookie mistake). Ate even more brownies.

   Oh boy I was on a different spectrum.

   I’ve asked myself:

   * who am I?
   * what am I?
   * what is my purpose?
   * what is the meaning of life?
   * who’s values and views am I following?
   * why haven’t I created my own life?
   * who do I want to be?
   * if I die right now, will I matter?

   It changed me forever.

   Became really good at my job, exercised vigorously, started to meditate, started to listen to audio books, respected my sleep, reduced stress, changed jobs, went back to college as a full time student.

   Great experience but can’t enjoy weed anymore.

   Was high for 12 hours.

   Worth it.

6. In med school I often questioned who I was because I was pursuing a goal my parents set for me and not something I wanted for myself.

   I did end up becoming a doctor and I don’t regret it, but I do wonder what would have happened had I pursued something else

7. Nothing too major but I guess you could say I’m in the process of it now. I ended my first proper relationship two months ago and felt quite lost for a while. I put so much focus, time and energy into her that I lost a part of myself for a while.

   Instead of moping about, feeling sorry for myself. I eventually decided to pick myself up and started working out, socialising, reading, meditating and focusing on my career and education. You name it, I put myself first, both physically and mentally. I hope to make habits of these things and continue on putting myself first.