Does she even like me?

Been going to school and studying with a girl almost everyday. We get along really well and I tried to hold her hand last week. She got really flustered and said no one had touched her like that in a long time. Then she said it wasn’t bad but she was just surprised. Then she told me stop looking at her romantically cuz I was kinda looking in her eyes and smiling and laughing.

After that she texted me yesterday to ask me about my stuffed animal cuz her friend wanted one and we just kept texting randomly after that.

But today I was her and she kept mentioning other guys. Said she should text some russian guy she thought was cute. And then mentioned some guy near us was hot.

I feel like she’s telling me she’s not into me by saying that stuff. I’m honestly feeling really depressed cuz I really liked her. Should I just shut off and see if she chases me. Cuz I feel like i’m just bothering. I feel like just stopping studying with them all together .. makes me sad