so things went bad, we don’t talk, we still follow each other on insta though for whatever reason. my dilemma is that whenever i check out an event i’d want to attend, i see that he already liked the post, and it makes me really anxious because i’m not the popular one. i can’t show up there by myself when he’s there with all his friends. and he usually is. i’ve never hung out with just him before so i know this is very likely. normally i’m ok in my own company, but i’d say it’s a totally different dynamic when there’s someone you don’t want to see there and you’re the loner, it’s like oh, he’s here by himself. it’s getting to the point that i’m anxious to even click on a profile because if he already follows it, i get the sense that it’s his place, he found it, he marked his territory, and i’m not ready for a potential encounter.
it would’ve been different if i never met his friends, that way it was only him judging me, but all his friends know about me because he introduced me to them all on the first date. in fact they were sort of there with us on the date. and they were there on the second date. and the third. and they definitely don’t care for my side of how things unfolded, so you know, walking into that situation would be nerve wracking :/ i would just unfollow him, but knowing where he is and where he isn’t is also good to know. question is what the hell do i do? i don’t wanna let this control my freedom, and i don’t wanna let this infringe on my fun. i wanna do whatever the fuck i want!
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Either block him, delete him or stop clicking on things. Stop letting him in your head. Do what you want, when you want. Don’t allow him to control what you do.