I have had fantasies about being a girl since before I was old enough to know what sex was. And, not just a girl, but a helpless victim of a sadist and I would eventually become willing partner.
Eventually I grew to think about giving blowjobs and eating cum. Then I discovered sissy videos.
I really enjoy the submissive aspects of them. The submission, the helplessness, the “fate,” the love of cock and cum are all things I really enjoy and get off to in fantasy.
But, my thing is I like to imagine I am the girl. Not a sissy but a real girl. So, while I love certain aspects of sissy videos, the ideas about transitioning and humiliation about being a faggot are not things I personally enjoy. In my imagination, I’m a girl, so they make no sense in the fantasy and spoil the fun.
So, is there a word for this kind of sexuality?
Does anyone have any ideas for videos that are similar to sissy with the humiliation focused on the girl and not on male behind the girl?
My perfect video would be FPOV, with another woman teaching the girl about oral sex, being sweet then abusive.