I feel like a failure because I’m not outgoing or like I’ll never accomplish anything

Just venting.

I want to be able to have a good, nice paid job but I am not good enough for it. I’m too shy for it and I’ll never be able to have that.

I remember being told by a classmate back in the days that I will never be able to have a family when I grow up because of my shyness. I think they were right.

Although I know comparison kills joy I can’t help but feel like people around me have it all figured out and they’re accomplishing what they want but I don’t think I’m good enough for what I want. My grades were mediocre, and my personality is less than mediocre.

I don’t know what to do really. Is it worth it here? Can I even change? I wish I wasn’t me.