I’ve been with my girlfriend for about 4 years now, Im 20 now and she’s 21 I met her when I was 16 & and she was 17. When I first got with her she recently got out a 1 or 2 year relationship with her ex and would use me as a shoulder to cry on and we ended up together. We were really good until she would hate that I would be with my friends a lot which led to a ton of arguments and we took a 2-3 day break like the first 4 months in and she ended up texting her ex (not sure what they talked about). After that it led to a lot more arguments and increasingly got worse which led to 2 other breaks about the same time (2-3 days). These 2 breaks she would text him again but id text my ex as well. Obviously this was not healthy but guess what… I STILL STAYED. The arguments got super crazy to the point she’d tell me to kill myself and that I’m worthless and ugly and whatnot.. in late 2020 after august we take another break and this time instead of texting him she hung out with him and supposedly she just went to get a car wash and then smoked with him, she even came to my house with him to pick up the pipe in my car.. she said nothing ever happened tho.. I got back with her but this time I downloaded some tinder like app and I sent & received some pictures from this girl after I found out that happened.. this led to a crazy breakup. We were single for about 2 months and I had Intercourse with 2 girls and she had intercourse with one guy. I couldn’t stand being lonely i guess and got back with her and we both changed after that incident but I rushed everything and 2 months in from being back together I took her to Seattle.. I’m regretting going back with her, we’re good now and we don’t argue like we used to and we’ve been happier but I don’t know if she’s healthy for me or if I’m even willing to marry her… even if I do want to leave I already made the commitment to be better for her and that I’m not here to just mess around plus we’ve been good and to just randomly break up would be weird..