I grew up in an insanely strict religious household where I was not allowed to go outside myself nor was I allowed to wear what I wanted. I used to get yelled at for the littlest things and sometimes they were physically abusive. I had 1/2 friends max from school, which even then I would just listen and never talk. I have literally no social skills. i am also way too codependent to the extent i cannot do anything (go outside, make appointments, call someone) without someone. i cant talk to my parents about anything and they never understand when i’m too quiet
However, I was allowed to move 4 hours away for university. My social skills had developed a bit and I had started talking a bit more, though I was known as the one always staying in their room. Since graduating and moving back home I entered a rut where l’m unemployed and probably go outside once a week. I’m too scared pick up job application calls because of my severe social anxiety. my parents are pressuring me to find a job however want me to stay at home. Im struggling to find a job close enough to stay home but I also don’t want to move out just yet as i don’t have the life skills/social skills to live by myself. I cant even go shopping myself without blushing and sweating.
I need advice on how to build my self esteem and sharpen my social skills.