We have known each other for six years, but only dated for two. We are in a long distance relationship and have been for two years, during which we have sen each other regularly. (About every other month) But this time we decided to wait for two and a half months instead because of work reasons (longer than we’ve ever gone without seeing each other) And for about two weeks I’ve been feeling really out of my loop.
I catch myself actively avoiding talking to him during my day, mostly because I know that our talks these days are just filled with empty spaces of silence, so thinking about calling just gives me anxiety. We speak every night, but we hardly actually “Talk” when we’re on the phone. When we do hang up I feel really relieved which quickly turns into guilt that I’m ever feeling that way at all. I just feel really disconnected. I’m pretty certain that I still love him, and i still see a future with him that I can really look forward to. But i just feel like we’ve both gone into shut down mode.
I’m just really lost and i could use some good advice.