Hi guys, so what I (M16) have been up lately is that there is this girl (F17) I like a lot since a few years ago but unfortunately she moved from my state to another and at that time I didn’t have a smartphone so I couldn’t keep contact with her.
Last year though she found me on Instagram and we talked a lot, even discovered we still had a lot of things in common and about 2 weeks ago or so, she told me that she was coming back in November to my city to see some relatives of hers and that she wanted to see me again, she even told me that next year she was going to move back here to study the course that she wants and I saw that as an opportunity to not lose her again.
The thing is that I really learned to love her, I love her appearance, her ups and downs, qualities and defects and every time I dated another girl on the span where I didn’t talk to her, I just couldn’t feel comfortable enough and that is what made clear to me my feelings for her.
Yesterday she asked me if I was interested in someone and I lied to her saying that I liked a girl from my school, saying that we are from different classes so we talk a lot through messages and only a bit by person and that I wanted to declare to her but was afraid of losing her, making her stop talking to me like happened to me a lot of times. What she answered me is that if I love her that much, I should just tell my feelings to her or I might get friendzoned, and that truly messed with me because I also discovered that she was going to move to my city at the end of next year, and I had a full plan about going out with her and ask if she would date me counting that she was moving at the start.
Now I don’t know what to do, I am afraid of telling her my feelings and get ghosted, afraid of waiting for her to move but get friendzoned by the time she gets here and afraid that we might be too young to even start something, but I just can’t keep this feelings to myself anymore, if just lying to her made me feel so bad, having to pretend I don’t like her until December of 2023 is going to get me crazy, even because I grew up hearing that you shouldn’t live with regrets, and I want to know her answer even if I get rejected just to keep my mind clear of any remorse, knowing that it could be the worse timing ever but not keeping those feelings for myself, because that would be the greatest regret I would have on my life so far.
But that is what I am thinking about right now, I know I shouldn’t worry about those things at this age but love it’s not something I can control, and I would really appreciate any tips or opinions on what should I do from now on, thanks for reading everything.
TL:DR: Apparently I need to do a quick resume, if it isn’t good, sorry idk how to make these.
Long story short, I (M16) like this girl (F17) for a long time but discovered that I am in a situation on if I wait for the “right” timing to declare my feelings, I might get friendzoned but if I tell her now, I might get rejected or it might not work out due to us being on different cities and I really need some help on what should I do, because I don’t want to ever lose her again.