I am realizing after assessing where I am this weekend mentally there is no way I should be dating.
Someone I was dating wanted to be just friends after a few months of dating. I wasn’t ready to make up my mind about exclusivity.
I knew the end was near when for the first time in 15 weeks they canceled on me out the blue. We ended up being just friends even though I wanted more.
Fast forward to the present we date and I had the brilliant idea to read their journal. What I found was heartaching. Not only had they cancelled on me for another date. But they had been talking about trying to solicit DMs from a former hook up. Time frame unknown.
Why do I think I’m not ready for dating? Because I found the former hook up on IG and have already began booking him for our holiday pictures. To do either a vibe check like hey I’m booking this person here’s the link to see if they say anything. Or just telling her it’s over when we meet for the pictures she will definitely know why. I thought I loved her but now I just want to see her feel pain like I did.