I’m not sure what i want to do

So I (23M) recently started talking to this girl (27F) a little while ago, when we officially met (she’s a friend of my dad’s girlfriend so I only seen over but never talked to her) i asked if she wanted a drink and she said yes. Over the drink we talked for hours about anything and everything. By the end of the night we ended up kissing and it was amazing but the next day she told me that she regretted it and that she doesn’t really want a relationship at the moment, which i respected her decision. But yet when she’s over, she’s flirting with me, poking me and all the other fun stuff. I really like this girl. When I’m around her i just can’t stop looking at her, her eyes are so blue and gorgeous and i just get lost in them. She’s aware of my feelings and stuff and feels the same way i do. It’s killing me because a few nights ago me, my dad, his gf, and her all went to this haunted trail thing going on for Halloween. By the end of the night she was holding onto me and holding my hand but none of those moves were moves made by me, i simply followed along because it was nice and i didn’t want to feel rude. The morning after that she texted me apologizing for holding my hand and i told her that i wasn’t going to mention it or even try to bring it up. I was just going to let it pass and brush it off because of her stating that she doesn’t want a relationship. After some things were said she told me that she does talk to other people and that I’m not the only one and told me that she doesn’t know what will happen if she doesn’t choose me. I didn’t tell her what i wanted to, I simply said “I see” what I’m having trouble with is figuring out if i still want to pursue her even after what she told me. Honestly this girl is absolutely amazing, besides her eyes, i love her voice, it rings in my head all day, i love her laugh even though it’s a little quirky cause she snorts when she laughs too hard(i know it’s weird to adore something like that in someone but hey, it’s the little things) i love her cooking, and hearing her rant about small things. She listens to me and understands me. It’s been really hard to just open up to someone the way i did to her. I don’t want to push my feelings away but honestly i don’t like the feeling after she pretty much told me that I’m an option when she’s the only person I’ve romantically pursued. I have a couple of female friends that i talk to daily but one is married with 3 kids and the other doesn’t want a relationship because she wants to focus on school and herself in general. But this girl got jealous when she saw me check both of their messages while she was over. One was asking about my day and the other was trying to get advice on something. I didn’t try to hide it, in fact my phone was flat on the counter and I was typing the messages as she was standing there. But it’s confusing because she expects me to not overreact and get jealous about being just an “option”to her. We have barely talked in a few days and it’s killing me because i don’t want her to slip away but yet i don’t think i want to do anything about my feelings. I’m so conflicted and I’m hurting just thinking about this.

-I’m sorry this is so long, i just needed to fully clear my chest about this-