[Throwaway account]
I got out of a long term straight relationship around 2 years ago and it’s sorta been a dry spell ever since. Last night I got baked af with my close friends (All Male & straight). But after being baked for like 15 mins, I was losing motor functions so I thought I’ll just chill out on the bed. At this moment, I was listening to this real good music, I could feel the music flow through me, it felt surreal, it was as if something just took over me. I got suuuuuper horny. At that point, I was also losing my ability to form full sentences. After multiple attempts I somehow called out to my friends and after mustering some effort I said, “I wanted to sex with someone right now”. They first checked if I doing okay when I called em initially, they gave me some water to drink & asked multiple times if I’m doing okay, they are a real caring group of friends. But after hearing what I said, they said they’ll get me laid soon and I shouldn’t worry bout it, but I don’t think they understood the context of what I said since I didn’t say it clearly, they thought I just wanted to get laid with a girl since they knew I was straight & have been out of the relationship for quite some time. But in the heat of the moment, I actually wanted to have sex with my friends, I didn’t push further and make shit weird after that interaction so I just went to sleep.
I took my time and to process what happened last night. I’ve never on a sober mind, fantasied about having sex with men in my entire life. But after the events of last night I’m kinda questioning my own sexuality (am I bi?) or was it just a spur of the moment thing?
4 comments
You’re bi
I don’t think you can base your orientation on what you think and feel in an altered state of mind.
You have realized that sexuality is contextual. But I think you should explore this when you’re sober at first.
You’re bi curious at the very least. If you still feel that way, you should consider experimenting with someone you feel comfortable with