I don’t know if it’s true, but I always feel that I give off some weirdness that makes people avoid me, even when I’m just trying my hardest to genuinely be me and be open towards people. I’m a small, young woman and I shower daily, so I don’t think I come off as creepy, just “awkward” somehow.
For example, I wanted to text someone in my study group “I believe in you” when they were struggling with something. My boyfriend (basically the only friend I have, and I don’t know if we’d be friends if it weren’t for the relationship), who was sittting next to me, told me that in the context of the conversation, it would sound like I was making fun of that person. I would have never thought of that, I was just trying to be nice.
People also reply the sweat drop emoji to me and look at me awkwardly when I say things sometimes… and no one appears to want to be more than aquaintances with me.
I don’t think I can fake being any different than I am though. I’m usually pretty quiet because I’m scared I’ll say the wrong thing, when I have any confidence I elicit these negative interactions. I feel like I’m incompatible with society.
Maybe I have autism, but if that’s the case, I’m already doomed, aren’t I?
Does anybody have any advice?