Me and my husband had a great relationship. Things changed when I gave birth to my 18 months old daughter. I suffered from postpartum Depression and anxiety. I still do. My husband keeps saying that he wants the old me and to be happy and positive and not to overthink and to stop putting things in his head that are not real( i keep saying my daughter has something wrong with her). The thing is i cant give him my old self.. i really struggle every day,and I started to put a mask on that everything is fine just to keep him satisfied. He wouldn’t understand anyway.. we fight a lot! And now since i started pretending that everything is fine things are ok. But inside I am feeling so lonely,like I cant talk to him whats in my head and he was the only person I used to tell everything. I really dont think we are gonna make it. My mental health has ruined us and I feel so bad.
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Have you seen a therapist? If not, you might seriously consider it. Be sure your husband knows that you’re taking this step for yourself. Having suffered from postpartum depression, the most invaluable thing my OB did was refer me to a therapist. While my husband was supportive of my seeing her, he didn’t understand why I needed to, which was fine. I hope you have a partner who is willing to support your need to seek help for yourself.
I recommend therapy and this anxiety skills playlist/course on YouTube. https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLiUrrIiqidTVNQB5GrD2uh-bmfUGGwh-z
So why haven’t you sought out help for yourself?