For context Im a college student in my early 20s.
This year has been really disappointing when it comes to people, ruined friendships, loneliness, lost pets, family stuff, home stuff, college stuff, Ive only been stressed and when Im not, Im just sad.
Ive always had a hard time with people, ever since I was little, but no matter what I do the situation stays the same, be it by talking to strangers, putting myself out there, trying to learn social skills, etc and it always ends with rejection, people doing stuff that I was ready for, it feels like Iive in a different rhythm than others because not matter how much I attempt, I just cant get the clue, or find the signals, Im not just talking about dating, Im talking about interacting as a whole and honeslty it just feels like everyone is either an asshole or “not meant to be”.
Why are people so cold anyways? People seem to judge way too much and way too fast, I hate judging others and assuming things but it seems like everyone is so bad, like why do I gotta swallow everyones bullshit, but when I show my own problems then Im the inconvenient one, then Im the one left behind, or seen as less.
At point Im 60% sure I might be neurodivergent since there is no way that I feel so lonely and disassociated from others for so many years, despite trying to meet so many people.
What should I even do be more accepted that doesnt mess with my personality? Because just seems like the problem is who I am not something that I could control.