Too caution, reserve I feel fake cause i know when i show real self, needy starved of love, people will not accept me and like me, so fear of abadon that i didn’t take any nice people to me seriously cause i know will gone and i am alone, why i feel inferior to nice friend? I should nt feel like this, friend is nice but i feel like i can’t be myself around them, feel invalidated, i need to act nice and obedient to them, act positive, act interest in them, i just know it is not real interest deepdown