I drove 2 hrs to spend time with my parents just so that my grandma can get out the house and see them. Today is one of my parents birthday and today is a Holiday im depressed it just came back a couple days. I don’t want to sit at the table for 3 hrs with strangers and family i cried earlier my face shows how upset I am and I have no energy to fake happiness. Everyone is happy and I feel that I will kill the vibe. I explained I just want to be by myself and they told guest how Im being which makes me not want to even more. I don’t want to force myself I always force myself in the past to do things and compromise and I’m not willing at this moment. Am I wrong ?