I’m 18 y/o with a strong attraction to milfs.

This is my first reddit post.
As the title says, I’m 18 y/o with a really strong attraction to milfs. Idk why exactly, I’m not sure where it came from, but the thought of banging a woman older than me just gets me. It’s not that I’m not attracted to girls my age, or those slightly older, I just really want to smash an older woman. I’ve never had sex before, never even been touched sexually by a girl, but that’s one of my fantasies. Can anyone explain why I have this attraction, where does it come from? And how can I find a milf or cougar to hook up with?
Idk if this counts as NSFW