I have no sense of timing.

Today my family is going to be super busy with arranging a party at their house which is something they have been working on for the past few weeks. I live away from them at the moment due to my studies, and am in a completely different state of mind than them. I sent a message to my father earlier today to which he replied with a thumbs up, which he usually doesn’t do. I should’ve picked up the cue then itself that he isn’t in the mood to talk about anything other than the party, but I didn’t (*what a moron I am*).

Then, I sent a link to a song in the family group chat and told that it gave me happiness, but ofc nobody would care at that time. They are all busy with the party arrangements and would even feel annoyed that I sent it then. I’m sure my father would say something like “you don’t know when to say things” and I am afraid of hearing that.

I feel like I am disabled. I don’t pick on cues like this and feel like a total idiot after the fact when I realise it. This makes me curl up more and more in my shell. I don’t want to talk with anyone at all. I’m sure I would’ve done something similar even if I was with my family in person.

Is there something I can do to fix this? Am I stuck with this for life? Am I autistic?