Whenever I go to any family gatherings especially ones where I’m not really informal and frank, I get really awkward. I struggle to make assertive eye contact, handshakes and even talking. Whenever I say sth I feel dumb about myself like I’m not making any sense at all. The worse part is I have these post gathering regrets about something I said or way I acted as in I could do better. Whenever my gathering is with fam or people I’m cool with I’m smooth. I never understand why I lose same persona when it’s about some formal dinner with family or some ceremony or even small gathering with family members. It’s been long I’ve been dealing with this but since I’m 22 M now I kinda think I should be working on it. But I always end up in vain.