I’ve (F19) been together with my boyfriend (M23) for a bit over a year. Like the title says, I have a fat/weight gain fetish. It started (in an innocent way) since I was very yough, but now I’m pretty adddicted to watching content about it, reading stories or fantasizing about it. It’s the only way for me to qctually orgasm at this point which is the hardest part. I really enjoy having sex with my bf and I’ve convinced him that it’s just hard for me to orgasm and that I can only do it in a specific way that takes a long long, which is mostly true. But I honestly don’t feel the need to orgasm while having sex. For me it feels so good already without. But my bf keeps trying to do everything to make me orgasm. It makes me feel so guilty.
My bf is is 5’9 and weighs 205 pounds. He used to be 189. It’s because we do a lot of weight lifting and he’s bulking. But I’m getting so turned on by a lot of stuff now. I just want to hug and cuddle all the time because he is a tiny bit chunky now. I don’t try to fatten him up because that’s messed up in my opinion, but I’m so afraid that it shows how much I’m enjoying this.
In the past month or so he did mention it a few times if I heard of feederism because he saw a video about it or something. But I still think he didn’t suspect anything, but yesterday he jokingly asked me are you a feeder when I gave him some food while he was driving. And I just said yes back in the same tone, because I thought it would be more suspicious if I would say nooo super hard.
But I’m starting to feel more and more guilty about keeping this from him. I don’t want to tell him since he would probably think I’m trying to fatten him up, which I really don’t want to do since I care a lot about his wellbeing. I wouldn’t be able to touch his stomach anymore while cuddling without him thinking about the fetish or normal things like ask him if he wants some more food. I am honest about everything else though, but I just can’t bring myself to tell him since this could ruin our relationship.
I’m really embarrassed, but I realised that I can’t get rid of this fetsh. It would be awesome to have some advice on how to cope with it though.
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Perhaps if you worked with a sex therapist you might be able to work around this fetish. There are many fetishes that are harmless and easy to fulfill, but a fat/weight gain fetish can put your partner’s health at risk, so you should try to find other ways to get off.
If you really can’t manage to enjoy yourself without this fetish, then you may have to break up and look for a fat man.