\*\*TL;DR;\*\* :my bestfriend and I have arguments over little things and she keeps telling me that I hurt her (I don’t to it on purpose I do it on accident and more often that not I’m trying to help her out there too) even after I do everything in my power to help her with everything I can.
so right me M(15) and my bestfriend F(14) have been really close for about 9 months now and I do so much to help her with all her problems. I’m there to hold her in when she’s really upset, I’m there to give her as much advice I can with little things but we have been fighting a lot recently and its been getting on my nerves and it would be over the tiniest things. but she would constantly tell me that I hurt her over and over again and it hurts me knowing I did that because I promised I wouldn’t hurt her but I seem to do it so often.
the main thing is that there was this guy who would constantly kiss her and do bad things to her like manipulate her and other things… her and stuff for months and me and several others were trying to get rid of him from her life but she wouldn’t listen to us. until just recently. we used to fight about that often until she finally brought up the courage to do it (thankfully)
but recently we’ve been fighting over tiny things I cant think of an example at the minute but it really happens a lot. just recently though I went out on work experience for a week. and in that week without seeing her (with one exception) she has been super distant and previous to this I told her I was scared that work experience was going to make us distant but she assured me she wouldn’t. I tried talking to her a few times and she just came back with small little responses which wasn’t like her at all. and we used to call for hours every night but she suddenly stopped which again scared me. but then this Wednesday she got with a guy who she has only know for at least 10-11 days. and I hate the bloke. he just doesn’t seem like a good guy and I’m not willing to give him a shot. the first time I went to talk to him he acted like I’ve known him for years and years. which really annoyed me I’m not a fan of people who do that and he seems like a guy who shows up in your life then disappears. but yea she started dating him and I had told her I was going to leave if she ever dated someone because we are teenagers the blokes gonna get jealous that she’s talking to me and all I’ve ever wanted for her is to be happy but she didn’t want me to go away. and I saw her on accident at the shops and she asked to talk and she basically told me how much she didn’t want me to go and she started crying. I folded but I said that there would be some changes that needed to be put into place if i was to stay. but that hurt her more. and she wasn’t afraid to tell me that. for days not she’s not been right with me because I implemented changes to keep her and her bf happy and in a healthy relationship. but she didn’t see it like that.
its just been hurting so much that I keep hurting her. and I’m so tempted to leave. its a toxic relationship and I am aware of it but I cant bare to leave and hurt her because she tells me that I’m the closest friend she’s ever had and that I make her happy. only once has she ever told me that I “saved her” and that I “changed her for the better”. fuckin once. but she tells me nearly 5 times a day that I hurt her for the past 8 months. her telling me that I hurt her isn’t the only thing she’s done that’s hurt me either. she’s a hypocrite as well among other things.
I’m really unsure as to what to do because 2 of my friends are telling me to leave but I tell myself that I cant.
edit: forgot to mention that she doesn’t get treated properly at home hence why I’m in her life