Hi, I work at Amazon and there’s plenty of co-workers I’m around and want to talk to them more like everyone else. Note that I haven’t had much of a social life before growing up..Just plenty of friends/strangers/acquaintances online, school, churches, and other places then and there.
There are plenty of times where I find that everyone on a social level is doing something I don’t normally do. They also interact in ways that it isn’t like ‘you ask me this question’ and ‘i’ll answer that question’ over and over. It almost feels like they have social skills in a big league that I can’t even match and that makes me jealous because I feel like the ‘people of’ ‘the person’ I’m talking to is uninterested in me and just a bystander. They are very nice with a smile on their face and seem happy to see or greet me though.
I never know much what to say except how they are doing, a smile, asking about their day and random questions. I almost feel afraid to talk to them too when we’re walking by and they can see me because they think I’m boring or uninteresting.
Nothing really happens until I say something. To add, when I try to show how much I want to talk to them I feel like I’m being weird or awkward, especially if It’s a girl. When I want to talk to them they may look at me weird and say ‘do you need something?’ I respond with ‘just saying hi’, but the next time I hesitated and said ‘oh nothing sorry’ I tend to care what they think of me and I feel like I just don’t belong or like I’m missing something that others don’t. I would say if I need to brush up my communication more.
There’s plenty of girls there too that either have; a huge social circle, a boyfriend or fiance that always walks, talks and is right beside them everywhere, or just general a person that they can always talk to so well and kid around with. Is there something I’m missing or am I just being paranoid?