I consider myself a project that I constantly have to improve. I need to keep getting better and better so that life doesn’t leave me behind…I have to work really hard for my career and personal development. But I’ve forgotten how to have fun….
How do i just pick up a hobby for no particular reason. How to make friends and not care about being judged all the time.
Everything seems to be do or die. I want to go back to when I’d simply do stuff and not be overly calculative;
When I’d get bored and find a piece of blank paper and some crayons…Hours later I’d have created a crappy ocean picture with way too many rainbow coloured fish but that’s not what I’d have focused on but rather on the fact that I made something colourful and pretty…I’d run around and shown everyone whereas now everything needs to be perfect or it gets ridiculed and thrown away by myself…
How do I become a kid again?