My ex-fiance and I had sex and I might be pregnant

My ex and I agreed to have casual sex. I still love him even though he dumped me. To cut the story short why, he cheated on me, felt sorry and dumped me because he thinks he doesn’t love me enough to be in a relationship anymore. However, we still kept communicating because he also wanted to be “friends”.

Days ago, we had sex and he said that he might have came a little bit inside of me. I, too, thought he pulled out a little bit late. So he asked me to take a morning after pill. Since it was already nighttime, I asked him to get me a morning after pill the next morning which he couldn’t get because that particular OTC pill I asked him to buy wasn’t available. 2 days went by after the sex, we went to see a doctor so she could prescribe me a pill. However, since I had regular periods and my ex and I had unprotected sex in my fertile window, she thinks there is a high possibility I might be pregnant so she prescribed me a medication that wasn’t a birth control. The doctor said that with the circumstances, we could only pray that we didn’t conceive if we didn’t really intend to have baby.

Both of us agreed that we have to make sure we will not get pregnant since we don’t really use any birth control and only do withdrawal method during our 3year relationship. And even though I still love him, I don’t want to get pregnant with him. I don’t want to have a child with him given the situation. I might have liked the idea having a baby with him if we were together, but we aren’t. I just feel like it’s wrong to have a baby with him now that we aren’t together and the idea makes me feel uneasy and uncomfortable.

I feel like it’s really just nothing and that we didn’t really conceive. However, when I asked my ex if he thinks we really did conceive or if he thinks it was really nothing, he says he is not sure.

My ex said he doesn’t mind having the baby if we did conceive. He is financially stable so he will take responsibility of the baby if there is. He promised to take care of me and the baby and will never leave me again. He doesn’t also pray that I am not pregnant. He even said it is okay since he’d always wanted a baby when we were together, it was just me who wasn’t ready. He said, If there is a baby, then it’s okay. If there isn’t, it is okay too. That gave me a relief if there is indeed a baby.However, the idea that he is only going to stay because of the baby makes me sad. The idea that we only had a baby because we were lustful and him not being in love with me anymore makes me really feel sad for the baby. I don’t want that for the baby if there is.

The doctor asked us to come back after 10 days which will be next week if I didn’t get my period. I really do feel like it’s nothing so I am not sure if we should really go especially that my ex and I have accepted everything and we’re leaving it up all to God. I am still contemplating whether to come back for another checkup or to just wait for my period if it ever comes. Any thoughts about this?