I have an ex (B 19) I dated from late 2019-mid 2020. It was his first relationship so we had a bad ending to our relationship.
Then I dated this other guy (K 19) for 2 years (late 2020-2022) We had a lot of good times but it’s long distance. Thats the only downside. We broke up during the summer because I wanted to find myself again.
So during that I was also talking to my other ex (B) and would hangout with him. We had so much special moments but I didn’t want to go through the pain again with him, he said he changed and grew and I believe him. I’m still scared to get back with him because he had sad something that had hurt my feelings back then and I still think about it. He said he’ll wait for more whenever the time is right. Another thing is whenever he talks to other girls, it makes me jealous and I have no idea why because I’m not even with him anymore. It confuses my feelings for him.
The long distance guy (K) came back into my life and we started to talk again. He tells me he’s so happy we’re talking again, how he feels happy that I’m in his life again and it stresses me out because it feels as if I can’t ever leave him. So I got with him again because I also really missed him and he’s everything I want but we currently can’t see each other at the moment.
Me and my ex (B) still talk as friends about games and how life is, he tells me he misses hanging out with me because we haven’t done that in a while.
I’m so confused about everything, and my feelings for the both of them.