I don’t know if I should risk it.

So I (14M) really like one of my female best friends (14F). I’ve liked her (and I mean *realllly* liked her) for a while now. She makes me feel like ecstasy and I love every minute I spend with her. The only problem is, I’m not sure if she likes me back. I’ve seen what I *think* is flirting from her like her saying something like “I hate most people, I like you though” but she says that to most of our mutual friends too. She also hugs me a lot throughout the day but she hugs like 3 other people too. She holds my hand a lot while walking up hills and she falls over a lot, some of my friends think she’s doing it on purpose. Idk why I keep disproving stuff. I want to ask her out and potentially start something (if she *does* feel the same) but if she doesn’t then I’d risk losing the friendship we already have and at this moment in time, that’s the most important thing to me. I don’t want to risk losing the friendship but I also don’t want to risk losing a potential relationship with the one person that makes me feel truly happy. I feel like I can’t just sit on it and wait for something to happen. I think most of my friends that I haven’t told already know I like her, I’ve only *told* one. We’re off school for now as it’s the Christmas holiday break and at this moment she doesn’t own a phone (it’s a really long story, basically her parents are the biggest pieces of shit I know) but apparently she’ll be getting one for Christmas. I don’t trust it though as we all know that her dad is going to install some sort of tracking thing where he gets a copy of every text she’s sent. So texting isn’t an option and I can’t really see her till January.

Just need some advice on either how to tell her or how to deal with the outcome, no matter what it is.